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Saturday
Dec222012

That time of year

It's the time of year where we reflect on this past year and think about what we want to do differently. Usually that ends up being something like losing weight, which i will do automagically when I stop eating like crap while on vacation, or stop smoking, which I did many years ago. These resolutions are really tough to do because they are habits or behaviors that we are trying to change that we have been building for a while. So then the next year we set these resolutions again only now its losing 25 lbs instead of 20.

This year I want to do something different. I am setting a deadline for myself so that I can push my hobby and hopefully develop it into a career. This year I will write 1 book and maybe write 2. I will also write more here so that I can collect my thoughts. I want to write as often as I can and when I am done with one project I will write the next. 

Monday
Oct292012

Halloween Story

In preparation for NaNoWriMo I decided to write a very short story. This one clocks in at just over 1400 words, so it is a very quick read. Hope you enjoy.:

 

Traveling through the desert is usually so mind numbing as to make anyone lose a little sanity, with little dotting the landscape besides a few cacti and some bristly shrubs, and certainly no good places to stop for a bite to eat. The drive from Bakersfield to Vegas was no exception. That drive is not what one expects when they think of deserts. There are no dunes, there are no pyramids, there are no camels, just a wide expanse of pavement, sand, and boredom.

 

Somewhere down the 15 freeway, between nothingness and limbo, where time seems to lose all meaning, lies the one thing to break up the drive. The Calico Ghost town. I arrived at the gates well after closing but I didn’t give a damn. I needed a break. I needed to stop staring at the long stretch  of pitch black freeway that was threatening to make my eyes bleed. The town was little more than a tourist trap, but the building were authentic enough that at night one could hardly see the telltale signs of modern commerce The security on this place was nonexistent, so with a hop of a short fence I had the town to myself.

There always seemed to be a bit of irony to me that “Ghost towns” around the country saw more visitors in one day than the town ever held as residents when it was in use. I was seeing the ghost town as it was supposed to be seen, vacant. Walking down the paved entry way, a nice modern upgrade to be sure, I narrowly missed a large metal basin. On the side of it was painted “Chinese bathtub; Back scrubs 5 cents, Full scrub 10 cents (try it for size)”. I am sure it got a chuckle from time to time.

 

I was an intruder in the otherwise empty existence of closed down gift shops and dilapidated buildings. Walking down the main street I was led to Lil’s Beer Garden. Rolling my eyes in disgust I looked around, determined to find something ghostly in this “Ghost Town”. I veered off the path and walked up the old wooden steps of the Calico House Restaurant. The old weather worn wood creaked under my shoes and I stopped, closing my eyes and breathing in the smell of the old wood. Wood this old has a smell like nothing else and it almost has the ability to take you back through the memories of the place.

 

*Creak creak*

My eyes shot open and I looked around in the moonlight, not able to see a damn thing. I hadn’t moved but it sounded as though someone had taken a few steps on the porch that I was standing on. Perhaps one of the rangers for the park saw my car and was checking it out, but would they creep around like that? I stared intently in the direction of the noise and let my eyes focus. As I stood there, my eyes began to adjust and I was able to see more and more as each second went on. I noticed some slight movement, like a piece of dark cloth flowing in the wind, or ….. Hair.

It was just a glimpse but I swear I saw long hair blowing in the nonexistent wind. I caught it out of the corner of my eye and yet when I looked to acknowledge it there was nothing there. I took a step in the direction of what I thought I saw and the old wooden boards groaned in protest. I rounded the edge of the building and my arms broke out in goosebumps. Not 10 feet in front of me was a woman in a flowing, older styled nightgown. The hair I saw moments before definitely belonged to her. Her hair was long, beautiful, and raven black, cascading down her back and moving ever so slightly as if blown by a light breeze. I was acutely aware of how eerily still it had been all night.

I tried to speak but was only able to croak out a strangled “Hello?”. The woman turned and smiled at me with the most welcoming smile I had ever seen. It was a big full faced smile, genuine, and seemed to convey that she was happy to see me. Strengthened by this friendly smile I said  “Are you lost or just taking a break from the road?”. I tried to smile back coolly, and I am sure I succeeded in looking a fool. She smiled again - was that pity I saw in her eyes?

 

“My name is Neil. Neil Bakley. It is a pleasure to meet you”. She didn’t respond verbally but walked over to me and lightly grabbed my hand, tugging at it as she started walking around the back of the building. As she moved, the nightgown clung to her body and I couldn’t keep my eyes from straying. She was gorgeous and the hand that gripped mine was smooth and soft. I didn’t question where she was taking me, figuring that a little excitement and adventure in one’s life could just be the cure for all that ails.

I stepped up my pace to walk beside my mystery woman and she responded by hooking arms with me, pulling me close as we slowly walked. It was still fairly warm out but she was freezing. She must have been driving with the AC on full blast and she hadn’t warmed up yet. I unhooked my arm and wrapped it around her shoulders, bringing her close to me for warmth. We walked and I talked about … nonsense mostly, work, friends, my dog, my plans for this vegas getaway. All the while she kept walking, leading me.

 

She would look at me while I talked, nodding and smiling. She appeared to be genuinely interested in what I had to say, and if she wasn’t she certainly did a good job of hiding it. I wasn’t really paying much attention to our surroundings as we made our way through town. At some point she had placed her hand on the middle of my chest and we stopped walking. She closed her eyes and we stood silently, my heart rate increasing as I drank in her closeness. I could hear my heart pounding in my ears as it built up to a deafening Thump, Thump, Thump. As soon as she removed her hand it stopped, to my relief, and we kept walking.

We were nearing a small rock fence with an iron gate. The sign above the gate read “Calico Cemetery” in black letters on a white sign. The woman moved from my side and pushed her way through the gate, her pitch black hair flowing behind her. Once she passed the gate she looked back and smiled. I followed her into the Cemetery without hesitation.

 

The area within the fence was dotted in burial mounds with grave markers of weather worn wood. In the poor lighting I was unable to make out any of the names on the markers. I walked around the mounds, out of respect, and followed blindly, one step after another. An animal cry in the distance pierced the silence and glanced around nervously. “Ok Ok, what creatures are in the desert? Llamas? Goats? Squirrels? no, no… Wolves?” I thought, trying to remain calm. I couldn’t see anything, and the sounds quickly faded, and I turned my focus back to my lady. She didn’t seem to be there anymore. The only thing there was a mist and, well.. nothing at all.

Before I heard the creature cry out I had stopped in front of a mound and she had been on top of the mound. Now the mound of rocks was gone and a hole was in it’s place. I peered in but the shadows didn’t allow me to see much. I heard a feminine chuckle, quiet and cruel, and that was followed by a firm shove from behind. That’s how I  ended up here, in dirt, with only the occasional worm and burrowing beetle to break up the monotony. Please, if you are ever in the area, driving down 15 towards Las Vegas, and you have a shovel in the car,would you be so kind as to stop by the Cemetery in Calico and start digging? I pray there was a new headstone put down for me.

 

Hope to see you soon. Watch out for Raven-Haired ladies.

Wednesday
Sep122012

THE THOUGHTLESSNESS OF POLITICS

I had a very large reminder today of why I hate politics more than just about anything out there. Let me give some background. (I know I know, this is where most people tune out)

The news has been going crazy with the reports of the senseless attacks on the U.S. Embassy in Libya that took the like of 4 US citizens. One of these victims was an ambassador and 3 were not. Two of the victims were had not been named due to their families not being informed. One of them was and his name was Sean Smith. Sean Smith was working for the State Department but his death affected a large number of people. 

Sean Smith was very active in the game Eve Online as Vile Rat and was well know for his Diplomatic  exploits that helped turn the tide in many an encounter on behalf of Goon Swarm. I didn't know him from this game but Goon Swarm is a gaming group that has it's roots in the Something Awful community, which I am a member of and have been since 2000. The loss of a community member has happened in the past and in most cases it sucks. In this case it really sucks.

Sean didn't deserve to go in this way. When reading the Something Awful forums there has been nothing but a literal gushing of comments that reinforce what a stand up guy Sean was.  I read the memorial thread several times today and I admit I was moved to tears at the great things everyone had to say. I was especially moved by some of the developers of the game Eve Online  as they echoed this sentiment. 

"I can tell you that CCP Games and its employees are overwhelmingly saddened by the news of Sean Smith's passing, as we are when we learn of any player who is tragically lost," said Ned Coker, a spokesman for the game's developer.

CCP Greyscale posted in the Eve Online forums ""Vile Rat" was a name you could mention in any conversation about the pointy end of EVE, without needing to explain who he was. He wasn't a figurehead or a whipping boy, he didn't have a gimmick - he was just a guy who'd accrued enough respect to be noticed."

Erlendur S. Thorsteinsson, a software director for Eve Online, said "I'm looking at a picture of Sean "Vile Rat" Smith, holding his son. They are both smiling and his son is giving two thumbs up. War and violence is always senseless, doubly so when it's personal. This makes me sad."

It is apparent in these words just how much on an impact Sean had on the people he came in contact with. Which brings me to the politics portion of this post.

Presidential Hopeful Mitt Romney (yes that was hard to say) decided to use this attack as a way to improve his chances at getting elected. The bullets had hardly stopped flying when Mitt attacked Obama accusing him of "disgraceful" handling in Libya and Cairo. "The Obama administration's first response was not to condemn attacks on our diplomatic missions, but to sympathize with those who waged the attacks,".

No one at that point had mentioned anything that would resemble sympathy for the attackers in light of the attack. Not the US State Department, Not Secretary of State Hilary Clinton, Not Even the U.S. Embassy  in Cairo. There was a Statement for Hilary Clinton  that said "I condemn in the strongest terms the attack on our mission in Benghazi today, As we work to secure our personnel and facilities, we have confirmed that one of our State Department officers was killed. We are heartbroken by this terrible loss." This statement was received by The Associated Press at 10:08 p.m. Then Mitt Romney made his comment a minute later. Where was the apology in there Mitt?

This is why I hate politics. I have a great idea. How about you show some sympathy for the people who lost their lives. How about the US Ambassador who fought so hard to make things better in Benghazi? What about The wife and family that Sean left behind when his life was senselessly taken from him. What about the friends and family of those affected by this devastating loss? 

Or better yet, Mitt, why not just shut your fucking mouth if you can't find something to say that is appropriate. How can he criticize anyone on their foreign policy when he can't even handle a situation that involves citizens of the US with the slightest amount of tact.

 

I apologize for the lack of coherence that may be in this post. I am not fine tuning it, I am just putting up my thoughts. Comments are disabled on this.

My heart goes out to all those who lost their lives in this attack.
R.I.P. Sean "Vilerat" Smith

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